Over the past few weeks, I thought of life and its ever changing colour. What happened to red, when life was rosy and cheery in good community? What happened to green when everyone enjoyed the outdoors? It's all just a shade of grey nowadays when we are all just conforming to a new world order. Enough of the fancy talk. This is sickening.

I remember when movies were rented and watched on Friday nights with the family. I remember when books were the knowledge source of the generation. I remember when games that were played were card games and hopskotch. I however, don't remember things that have now been taken over by the economy. The world is booming; it's advancing at a rapid rate.

Music was once an entertainment that touched the souls of people. It now causes people to go deaf and kill themselves. Sure iPods were made to let people listen to music on the go, but it has killed the meaning of music. The music generation and industry are now not what they once were. LPs were the heart of clear music, when people who could actually sing became famous because they can sing, not because they can produce lyrics that do not make sense and electronically enhance their voice.

The internet is a gift, an enhancement of nearly every aspect. Friday night movies were once an anticipated event for families and friends. We always had an anxiety of what we can watch from the rental video store. Nowadays you can just click click click and find a movie to watch. No need for friends, no need for family, no need for a social life. Gaming, web documents, streaming/uploading, just about everything that has crumbled our society into a ball of shit. Anger spouting here and there over something that was never something to be fought over.

In 6th grade we'd play card games and hopskotch; games that developed the bonds of children and not corrupting the minds of youth. Now games like Halo and whatnot makes children hate their parents, not eat dinner, not go out, not socialise other than screaming over a microphone 'I"M GONNA KILL YOU U FUCK'. Technology was supposed to aid us in our knowledge and advances in the world. Why has it been abused at ever cornerstone? Sure technology has saved lives, made the world seem better, but in the end, it is just replacing things upon things.

Remember film cameras? Remember buying film, processing it, and going to a shop and printing them out? It used to be a pain, but the gift received is well worth the time. We would be able to share and cherish these memories on film; able to hold them in our hand and say 'I was there' or 'That was a moment to remember'. These days digital camera is the most convenient. Most convenient at making us forget these treasured memories I'd say. Sure we'd take a lot of photos and store them in our large file database. But once we put it in there, it will hardly be touched nor seen for a length of time. I have tried that, it seems lonely. Not to forget, photos required skill and precision to take. You could not replace or remove a shot once you've taken it. People these days just have it all lazy and spoonfed. 'Oh look this isn't good. Delete. Take new blurry photo.'

Everything these days are so half-assed. There is probably about 10% real hard effort in everything that has made our lives easier. It's making us turn into fat lazy bastards that are spoonfed baby food until we learn to say 'I need a challenge', which we'll never say. Although some people do say 'Oh this is challenging, I can't seem to do it', is only because they don't put enough effort into it then dump whatever they're doing. It's like saying, a teenager shouts to his mother 'MUM WEARS MY JEANS?'. 2 most probable answers are 1. He's never even bothered to look for it, or 2. He just wants an easy way out. Where is the effort nowadays? Resumes can be sent online now, instead of presenting yourself to the manager of the business. No wonder why everyone gets rejected because of a half-assed response. Managers want to see YOU, see what YOU can do, see what YOU can provide, see how capable YOU are. It just does not cut the cake.

 

Only 30 to 40 years ago China had one of the worst economy and people were thin as my pinky. Nowadays, people are now as thick as my obese friend's pinky; pudgy, bulging and unsightly. In a world where we once craved for a healthy and nutritious supplement and food source, we died of hunger and body depravity. We now die from heart disease, high blood pressure, diabetes and clotted arteries. What has the world become? Have we now taken 2 steps forward and 3 steps back? We were once deprived of proper daily supplements, when not a single speck of food on the plate was wasted. Now, McDonalds is a daily ritual for our youngsters, and food is left on the plate as if it was seen as a want (now not wanted) and not a need. These days, marketing has took a turn on how they manage their job. I met a marketer who said that their goal was to convert our wants into needs. Is it so much to ask for changing our style of dying? Sure we now give people what they want and everyone has a portion of delicious food, but at the same time we are being killed from it.

My dad is in a life-threatening situation. It was just a dinner at the table and we were discussing about his health. When he was a teenager, his siblings and he never had a proper full 3 course meal a day. Everything was conservative. He noticed the amount of oil in food has increased, and portions too. Even still mum has controlled the oil amounts and used only good oil, but still. My dad now has high-blood pressure because of the world moving too fast. Too fast for even its residents to catch up. My dad is only one victim of many. Bhopal suffered. Hiroshima suffered. Australia suffered. China suffered. Many people have suffered.

You would never see so many fatty food in big portions on the streets in China. Even going out to eat was considered a very, very special occasion. Going out to eat meant dressing very well, visiting and acting very formally to relatives. Kids these days just go and wipe their asses on the table, wail and whine, and adults have leg and feet up on chairs while eating and talking.

Even now I try to live in my dad's generation, when everything was 'real'. Not trying to make things 'look real'. I've come to appreciate real music, real food, real methodology, real teachings, and a real way of life. I don't want to be sucked into a world where you can fuck someone over and saying you did a good thing. One's reality of good is also another person's reality of bad. That's what I've learnt. You may think you've done good, but you can do bad. Just make sure we are doing the right thing. Too bad we aren't. Corporate giants and individuals just act according to what they feel like. Hardly any person younger than me that I have talked to are grateful for what is provided for them. They all take it for granted and assume it is part of their life. As far as I'm concerned, video games do not benefit anything, it is not a part of life, fat food is not a part of life, extra large meals that are probably extra extra extra large meals are not a part of life, the internet is A part of life, but it does not assume control of life.

I'm still learning, and am happy to learn. Before I would not take any advice from people, but now I realised how much knowledge and worth it has. I've come to accept I am a bad person and am trying my best to correct things as best as I can. Why can't people have this mentality than thinking they're all top shit? Like Buddhism teaches us; we cannot learn anymore if we think we have learnt enough and can't replace our own ideals. Life is about learning, that's how we end up as who we are ... not some kid holed up in their room thinking the virtual world is all they need and don't need anything else.

Get a hold of yourselves people. Slap yourself or get someone to slap you for you. Please see past the giant veil humanity has thrown over your eyes. I'm still learning, and happy to learn.

My life in 30 minutes.

Wayne.

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